Love In The Hard Times

So today a friend told me that I remind him of Marcie from Peanuts, which was his response to my telling him the previous day he reminded me of Charlie Brown. I don't know how I feel about this lol Out of all the girl characters on Peanuts, she is one of the more favorable ones in personality but she secretly likes Charlie Brown...

On another note, as I was thinking today I thought about how growing up I had this tendency to feel as if I wasn't really payed attention to by some who were close to me. I realize now that they were treating me the way that they knew -- pretty much the only way. I see now the difference between knowing what one's supposed to do, and having the strength to do it - gives a whole new take on compassion...

Nothing is ever as it seems. I only have so much control over life situations. It's okay.

;)

I'm re-learning to be okay with God speaking to me.

It's a new year, and it started off great with friends and family. I was able to see fireworks from a friends home throughout all downtown. Our church friends had one of those wrap-around porches that kind of give you a 180 degree view of the city and the fireworks display all around - it was truly awesome. It's funny, some years I have felt this sort of nostalgia or sense of loneliness in the beginning of things like new years, but not this year. This year I felt a sort of completeness in knowing that I am giving life what I can while I have it. So many things happened this year, and packing them all into one memorable moment would be friendships. I learned a lot, about self-value as well - and it wasn't easy. Sometimes I look back on pictures I have taken from this year, a sunny day, a cloudy day, even family pics, and it's quite apparent that God was speaking to me. God spoke to me when the day was beautiful. God spoke to me when I was surrounded by family. God spoke to me when no one was around, and I felt I should pray and actually did pray. God spoke to me when there was silence. (Ironic.) Sometimes God spoke and I didn 't want to accept His voice, because I felt like I had it all under wraps - 'it's a good day today God, I think I can figure it out from here'. Sadly, this was the case for a lot of moments this year. I know that God gives second chances, but I don't want to continue testing Him. I pray that you all who come to this blog are blessed with a full new year, and that we may both accept the offer God gives us of today. Happy New Years & Happy 2015! :)

You are the shelter from the rain, and the rain to wash me away.

~ Jars of Clay

Sometimes it takes an all-nighter, a deep-end procrastination moment to reveal some profound truth that otherwise would have remained uncovered until some normal point of desperation.

Sometimes the most precious moments are not tangible and not all gifts come in wrapping.

The blind won't see by opening their eyes.

-  Ghostship